The trauma of receiving hostility

The trauma of receiving hostility (physical or nonphysical) from a parent at the onset of life  (before birth, at birth or soon after birth) can be traumatic for some people, depending on their soul composition and purpose. This child experiences hostility or rejection from at least one parent. The reason why this can be so traumatic at this early stage of life is that the child has no
option but to be with the parents. It naturally and instinctively depends on the parents for security, love and shelter. When it experiences hostility from the very source of its survival and security, the psyche develops a deep fear of life itself, a fear of existing. The child learns at a very early stage to withdraw their spirit away (leave the body partially) and back into the spirit

world. The child develops a deep fear of life in general or in specific areas, a fear that creates a belief that the child has no right to exist or must earn that right. This habitual withdrawal or escape leaves behind a personality that is in need for being held together. Over time, the person doesn’t feel connected to life but instead feels separate from it, not really living it. This leads to
another stage whereby this person seeks to feel life, to exist and live it fully, yet at the same time they fear life, believing that they must withdraw and split for them to ensure their survival. This leads to an impasse within them that states,if I withdraw, I won’t experience life, but if I experience life, I will be hurt, so to exist and live is to die fearfully. These people
quite often have a twist in the spine, and an energy block at the neck near the base of the skull.
These people also appear to be ‘away’, not present in the moment. Because these people are quite disconnected from experiencing their life force, many of them use sex to feel that connection to the life force, that feeling of being alive. Hence, many of them start masturbating relatively early in life. As their lives progress, these people continuously live with a transparent belief that life is threatening, and they see life through that belief, create it and experience it that way. As time goes, they develop a deep, inner anger over experiencing a hostile world (which is how they see it, create it, and experience it). To them, the world really is a fearful place – this they are convinced of to the level whereby it appears to be a fact and not a belief
about life. They are further angered because they feel unable to connect with other humans and feel a free love connection, yet this love connection is also what they feel they need to feel safe and live. The solution for this people is to realize first that life is not threatening. It loves. The only reason they experience it as threatening is their deep-seated belief that they formed as
children. Secondly, they next require realizing that all the anger they have held within themselves is what is terrifying them and giving them false mental pictures of a threatening world. They need to stop withdrawing and shrinking from fear and instead face their fear and anger and let it flow out naturally until it empties itself out. They then find that there really
isn’t anything to be afraid of, and the world finally takes on its loving and safe appearance once they drop the fear and belief in a hostile world.
People with schizoid aspects in their character are often very spiritual, creative, and purposeful.
Their creativity, however, is hampered because of the splits they have created within them.
They are literally a collection of un-integrated parts, split up. As they work on themselves, and heal their personality and face their fear and anger, integrating the parts of their personality, their physical appearance, mind, aura and creativity all gain their natural unity and as the person lives more presently and fearlessly in the physical world, their creativity blooms.